With most of my time and self-worth invested in my job, I spend a lot of time thinking about what I like to do. Or, more accurately, what I'd rather be doing.
I've relied on my instincts and ability to build a state career of more than 20 years, but that doesn't seem to be enough to work well these days.
Over the years, I've seen my salary rise, my retirement take shape, and my energy wane. It's taken me two decades to build a modicum of financial security. Now my overwhelming interest is to love who I am and what I do.
One path to a solution is to improve my game, work harder and adapt to the contemporary forces with which I am in conflict.
That will take some effort as I am set in my ways...like an old dog. What is the likelihood of success in tacking toward success in my current job? Must I learn new skills and behaviors to augment my natural ability? Can I change my game at this juncture? Is satisfaction at hand, but for my stubbornness constantly getting in the way?
Where I have found peace in recent months is by exploring different outlets for my natural interest and ability. I'd really like to rekindle a long-dormant desire to work in sports production. I've fanned those hopes recently with a few small steps; God has opened some doors, and some influential people have appeared at my side.
Will I get a "second wind" in my state career to stoke the fires of desire? Or, as I genuinely feel, am I at the crossroads of a career change, driven by passion for the work instead of avarice for the dollar?
I must admit that I am filled with excitement for what lies ahead in 2010. I live in anticipation that change is coming. Truly, this is my personal Advent journey.
lots of people have started 2nd even 3rd careers, and much later in life than you are contemplating. i'm lining up my next one too, as soon as i finish my software, as i approach my 66th b'day.
ReplyDeletebut i agree totally that the worst day you might have in a job you love is far better than the best day stuck in one you detest. i say go for it. but 1st, have a wonderful christmas!
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Your thoughts and yearning for meaningful (and fun) occupation of your time resonate with me.
I'm kinda rushed right now trying to get out of the office, home to family, and on a plane with everyone tomorrow A.M. to Wash., D.C.
I would, however, very much like to have lunch with Thomas and you next month to focus on this very important area of our lives as men.
Drive safely tomorrow to your Mom's and tell Dan I'd be honored to meet him sometime. My very best to all in your household for happy and healthy holidays and a terrific 2010!
Don't ever let the dream die!
Respectfully,
Eric Wiesenthal